Do any of you ever get this? Like when you're starting something new and you're totally excited, but also really nervous at the same time and also even a bit terrified that it's going to all *poof* blow up in your face?
I'm starting my new job tomorrow and I'm really stoked about it and I've been prepping on and off all weekend (I got a list of stuff we're working on), and I know that it has the potential to be really awesome but I still have that nagging little voice in my head being like "what if you just fail? Or what if it's too good to be true?"
There's also this guy, and we've been getting closer. And it's TOTALLY freaking me out, in a good way. The thing is, I don't really know where it's going and I'm not even -sure- I want it to go anywhere (I think I'm more into a friends with benefits sort of thing...I just have a lot going on right now), and I think that's better for him now too (he's in the army, it's kind of demanding), and plus it's long-distance. Anyway it's all totally going well and it's the right thing for what we both want right now, and it's really nice to text and talk on the phone and just feel like you have someone there, but all my relationships with guys, no matter what level of seriousness, blow up in a very ugly way and I'm really worried that liking him and being involved with him will lead nowhere good, just because I fail at men in general. But I think I'm also being totally irrational and I should just take it for what it is and enjoy it?
Anyway anyone else get this?
I'm starting my new job tomorrow and I'm really stoked about it and I've been prepping on and off all weekend (I got a list of stuff we're working on), and I know that it has the potential to be really awesome but I still have that nagging little voice in my head being like "what if you just fail? Or what if it's too good to be true?"
There's also this guy, and we've been getting closer. And it's TOTALLY freaking me out, in a good way. The thing is, I don't really know where it's going and I'm not even -sure- I want it to go anywhere (I think I'm more into a friends with benefits sort of thing...I just have a lot going on right now), and I think that's better for him now too (he's in the army, it's kind of demanding), and plus it's long-distance. Anyway it's all totally going well and it's the right thing for what we both want right now, and it's really nice to text and talk on the phone and just feel like you have someone there, but all my relationships with guys, no matter what level of seriousness, blow up in a very ugly way and I'm really worried that liking him and being involved with him will lead nowhere good, just because I fail at men in general. But I think I'm also being totally irrational and I should just take it for what it is and enjoy it?
Anyway anyone else get this?
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