I'm new to the forum and have a million questions to ask but I went with this one because I think it's going to help me the most right now.
"I'm looking for something" is the exact thing that got me to really commit to paganism about a year ago. It seems really vague but some people I guess might already know what I mean. I was born and raised christian and around two years ago it started to feel like something was missing...So I dropped that whole thing and started looking for another religion that more closely suited my feelings. Paganism was the closest thing I could find. And I'm really sure that what I'm looking for is somewhere inside of it. I get this gnawing feeling sometimes that gets triggered by random things. I'll be outside on the porch and see a rabbit just kind of sitting there and I almost have this mind-blowing realization but its just a little bit out of my reach. Sometimes it happens when I'm browsing the internet and I go on week-long searches for information that apparently isn't there. I'm pretty sure what the thing is- its information or knowledge of some kind, I just don't know what the genre of it is. I get an impulse to look, but whether its because I'm not persistent enough or because the answer just simply isn't where I'm looking, I find nothing. It feels almost like I haven't eaten in forever. I'm just dying to know something and I don't even know what it is I want to know.
If anyone has had a similar experience or knows the kind of thing I'm talking about a push in the right direction would be the most amazing thing ever. Maybe even your story, if you have one? Or a teacher? Just anything. Stumbling around in the dark for this like an idiot is driving me insane.
"I'm looking for something" is the exact thing that got me to really commit to paganism about a year ago. It seems really vague but some people I guess might already know what I mean. I was born and raised christian and around two years ago it started to feel like something was missing...So I dropped that whole thing and started looking for another religion that more closely suited my feelings. Paganism was the closest thing I could find. And I'm really sure that what I'm looking for is somewhere inside of it. I get this gnawing feeling sometimes that gets triggered by random things. I'll be outside on the porch and see a rabbit just kind of sitting there and I almost have this mind-blowing realization but its just a little bit out of my reach. Sometimes it happens when I'm browsing the internet and I go on week-long searches for information that apparently isn't there. I'm pretty sure what the thing is- its information or knowledge of some kind, I just don't know what the genre of it is. I get an impulse to look, but whether its because I'm not persistent enough or because the answer just simply isn't where I'm looking, I find nothing. It feels almost like I haven't eaten in forever. I'm just dying to know something and I don't even know what it is I want to know.
If anyone has had a similar experience or knows the kind of thing I'm talking about a push in the right direction would be the most amazing thing ever. Maybe even your story, if you have one? Or a teacher? Just anything. Stumbling around in the dark for this like an idiot is driving me insane.
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