Greetings!
I'm Jen. I just joined this forum and I'm at the beginning of a journey to a new spiritual path but before I go any further with my posts on this forum, there's something that I need to do. What you will read next, is an open apology I posted on my spiritual blog a couple of days ago but I'd like it to reach as many people as possible.
I used to be Christian and back in the day I behaved in ways that I shouldn't have. Being a Pagan now has opened up my eyes so much and I've been feeling so guilty and ashamed that I needed to do something about it. I know that you may not know me nor I may not know you, nonetheless I felt compelled to write this for you, for everyone who reads it and identifies with it:
An Open Apology
As I write this, I'm thinking of the best way I could express my feelings. Words elude me every few minutes. I guess there is no other way of saying that I'M SORRY. I don't seek forgiveness nor I seek understanding. I only want to try my best to let others know how deeply sorry and ashamed I am of how I used to be and how I used to treat others who didn't believe in what I believed. There are no excuses, no justifications. I could say I was brought up to be like that but that's not a good reason.
I never thought beyond of what I had been taught until the damage was done. I didn't give anyone an opportunity to help me understand why they thought differently. I thought I was doing good when in reality, I was being judgmental, selfish and depriving people of their freedom of expressing themselves how they wanted. I now know how frustrating it is for someone to not understand your ways and simply judge you for the way you look, act or speak... even what you wear.
I'm sorry. I wish I could go back in time and give people back all that time and energy they wasted on me trying to escape from a judgmental, close-minded, intolerant environment. I didn't know but worst of all, I didn't want to know. It's been years since I last did anything similar but I guess it took me to experience it to really know how much it hurts. How much it hurts to have people look at you like a stranger, an anomaly, a weird being. I had no idea. I know this might not be much, maybe not a lot of people will read this but I just wanted to put it out there for anyone to see.
I don't know what else I could say other than I'm sorry.
This is my apology to you. To everyone whom I once judged, looked down on or criticized. I now release this hoping that someone, anyone will read it and know that I understand. There's no hidden agenda, only regret.
Originally written on August 23, 2013.
I'm Jen. I just joined this forum and I'm at the beginning of a journey to a new spiritual path but before I go any further with my posts on this forum, there's something that I need to do. What you will read next, is an open apology I posted on my spiritual blog a couple of days ago but I'd like it to reach as many people as possible.
I used to be Christian and back in the day I behaved in ways that I shouldn't have. Being a Pagan now has opened up my eyes so much and I've been feeling so guilty and ashamed that I needed to do something about it. I know that you may not know me nor I may not know you, nonetheless I felt compelled to write this for you, for everyone who reads it and identifies with it:
An Open Apology
As I write this, I'm thinking of the best way I could express my feelings. Words elude me every few minutes. I guess there is no other way of saying that I'M SORRY. I don't seek forgiveness nor I seek understanding. I only want to try my best to let others know how deeply sorry and ashamed I am of how I used to be and how I used to treat others who didn't believe in what I believed. There are no excuses, no justifications. I could say I was brought up to be like that but that's not a good reason.
I never thought beyond of what I had been taught until the damage was done. I didn't give anyone an opportunity to help me understand why they thought differently. I thought I was doing good when in reality, I was being judgmental, selfish and depriving people of their freedom of expressing themselves how they wanted. I now know how frustrating it is for someone to not understand your ways and simply judge you for the way you look, act or speak... even what you wear.
I'm sorry. I wish I could go back in time and give people back all that time and energy they wasted on me trying to escape from a judgmental, close-minded, intolerant environment. I didn't know but worst of all, I didn't want to know. It's been years since I last did anything similar but I guess it took me to experience it to really know how much it hurts. How much it hurts to have people look at you like a stranger, an anomaly, a weird being. I had no idea. I know this might not be much, maybe not a lot of people will read this but I just wanted to put it out there for anyone to see.
I don't know what else I could say other than I'm sorry.
This is my apology to you. To everyone whom I once judged, looked down on or criticized. I now release this hoping that someone, anyone will read it and know that I understand. There's no hidden agenda, only regret.
Originally written on August 23, 2013.
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