Help? Anyone?

Hi,

I'm not Pagan, nor any of its subreligions, but it's a religion that has always interested me. I attend a Unitarian Universalist church, and I find Pagan and UU beliefs to be quite similar. I don't know if my question belongs here, or if anyone may be able to help; but it is something I need help with, and perhaps someone here has an answer.

I'm a woodsy gal, and spend every free moment I have climbing trees or skipping through the forest. A few weeks ago, on one of my forest adventures, I found a necklace on the ground. The woods that I frequent are not open to the public, and I'm quite sure that I am the only person to venture very deeply into them. The necklace is a crystal ball on a silver chain. It intrigued me to find such a thing. When I put it on, I got an odd feeling, as though this necklace had always belonged to me.

The first night I had it, I wore it to bed. Quite often I lucid dream, though the dreams I had while wearing the necklace were quite different. They seemed more like precog visions. I saw myself older, married, with children, etc. They were tangable, seeming real. when I awoke the next morning, I did not feel particularly well-rested.

It was not until a few weeks later, that larger things started to happen. I was flipping through an old mythology encyclopedia that had belonged to my grandmother. At the beginning of the book, there was a sticker that said "Donated by ____" (I forget the name at the moment.) I sat for quite a while wondering who the person was. Wearing the necklace, I put my hands on the book. The most amazing thing happened (at least, amazing for me.)

My mind became filled with flashbacks of the book's history. I saw a child, whose mother was taken away from him due to mental illness. I watch him grow up, and become a doctor. He spends his life searching for his mother, but without success. He donates her old book collection to a retirement home--the retirement home where my grandmother died. I saw much more than this--tiny details of his life and the book's life.

At first, I was in a state of nonbelief. But then I tried it on another book. The same thing happened. I tried it on old photographs and objects. Some were happy memories, some were sad, but all were deeply detailed.

Each time I use the necklace, my psychic energy is drained. I become physically, spiritually, and emotionally exhausted. For this reason, the necklace frightens me. I know nothing of magick, thought it has always fascinated me. I would love to look into Wiccanism, but sometimes it seems as though so many teenagers have become Wiccan or Pagan or "goth" just as a statement, not even knowing the history or meaning of the religion.

If anyone has any information, tips, guidance, or really anything at all, it would be deeply appreciated. I am at a loss of what to do. Any object that I touch while wearing the necklace tells me its story--even raindrops!

Thank you,
Rebecca