So I've been wonderfully blessed with a couple of months of living in a college dorm- all the freedom of adults who don't care what you do, so long as you keep your grades up and pay your fees. But summer is here and I've been convinced to live with my parents. The problem is, I have this HUGE problem of not being able to filter my words, and I'm on meds that aren't fixing it. This is the number one thing the medication was supposed to fix. The nuclear weapon soaked in kerosene on top of this problem is that my dad gets upset easily, and it never goes well.
Example: He suggested today that I look into marketing as a career, and I told him that I wouldn't want to do marketing or advertising, because I disagree with consumer culture. (I even hedged it by starting with: While I agree with the core of capitalism...) Nothing is open to debate, calm discussion, or even ignoring it and moving on. He doesn't even apologize for blowing up, except this one time when he grabbed my shirt and ripped the hood; It wasn't even my favorite or anything- it was a free one with weak stitching.
I am typing this from my room, where I'm grounded because he's sick of my hippie-talk. I am honestly terrified of what would happen if he found out I'm a heathen, or even that I have an account on this site. I can't wait until the dorms open up again.
(I really really needed to get that off my chest)
Example: He suggested today that I look into marketing as a career, and I told him that I wouldn't want to do marketing or advertising, because I disagree with consumer culture. (I even hedged it by starting with: While I agree with the core of capitalism...) Nothing is open to debate, calm discussion, or even ignoring it and moving on. He doesn't even apologize for blowing up, except this one time when he grabbed my shirt and ripped the hood; It wasn't even my favorite or anything- it was a free one with weak stitching.
I am typing this from my room, where I'm grounded because he's sick of my hippie-talk. I am honestly terrified of what would happen if he found out I'm a heathen, or even that I have an account on this site. I can't wait until the dorms open up again.
(I really really needed to get that off my chest)
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