For a long while, I had not considered myself religious, and spent the first quarter of my life so far as a protestant by birth, but atheist by practice.Two weeks ago however, I had what many consider to be an awakening. I found myself being thrown into a world that hasn't really changed, but my newly awoken awareness has made thing complicated. I'm aware of the energies around me- I can manipulate them, I can feel them and to some extent even see them. With that, I have become unfocused, and it's not something I can go to many of my friends and talk about. I do have one person I can talk to, but her abilities are more along the lines of a dark shaman, while my own are geared more towards healing and communing with earth spirits (plants, animals, fae, etc).
I don't hold many of the same beliefs as most pagans. I worship no gods or deities, and many concepts of the religion confuse me as the ones I would turn to are not your average pagans. I have purchased a few books, but I find myself growing disinterested in the technical things; the rituals, the tools, etc. It's not that I am being disrespectful, but because of this and my view and experiences so far, I have a hard time grasping the "religious" part of paganism. Because of this I find myself alone because I feel as if I am pagan, but I'm not at the same time. I believe in the core concepts, but I still feel like it's not enough, especially if I wish to find a group in my area to participate with and make some friends.
I have been told I have the potential to take the path of the druid, but I have such a long way to go and much to learn before I take that path. For now, I need help finding a place to start. Again with my own personal beliefs it's hard to find the right books or people to read and talk to. I'm lost and I have no idea where to go from here.
I need guidance and a helping hand.
I don't hold many of the same beliefs as most pagans. I worship no gods or deities, and many concepts of the religion confuse me as the ones I would turn to are not your average pagans. I have purchased a few books, but I find myself growing disinterested in the technical things; the rituals, the tools, etc. It's not that I am being disrespectful, but because of this and my view and experiences so far, I have a hard time grasping the "religious" part of paganism. Because of this I find myself alone because I feel as if I am pagan, but I'm not at the same time. I believe in the core concepts, but I still feel like it's not enough, especially if I wish to find a group in my area to participate with and make some friends.
I have been told I have the potential to take the path of the druid, but I have such a long way to go and much to learn before I take that path. For now, I need help finding a place to start. Again with my own personal beliefs it's hard to find the right books or people to read and talk to. I'm lost and I have no idea where to go from here.
I need guidance and a helping hand.
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