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    Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

    First, thank you SO MUCH to everyone who answered my previous thread.... of course, nothing bad happened to me and I worried for absolutely nothing........ no surprise there.

    Sorry I keep bugging you guys, I'm just trying to understand what I'm doing.....

    A couple people mentioned I should wait before trying to call out to gods. I agree with you- I specifically called out to gods this one time because I was making an offering to Bast. I probably won't try calling out to gods for a while.

    So I don't really know what I did, but basically this was what happened- and if you guys could tell me if I'm doing something wrong or dangerous that would be fantastic.

    I spent a few minutes just listening to instrumental (I listened to it through the entire time) and calming and quieting my mind. Then, I offered the items I had on a table in front of me to Bast.

    I asked the gods if they wanted anything of me to send me a sign. (As someone else brought to my attention, I did specify GODS. I did not invite any ONE- like demons and spirits. So at least I didn't do that.)

    Okay so after that is where I might have done something wrong. A friend of mine told me to try visualizing myself somewhere, so I visualized myself in a field with tall grass. There was a forest on the left, so I walked through it for a while. Eventually I came to a cave, and went inside. I wandered around, eventually coming across steps, and finally a stone door that blended in with the wall of the cave. I opened it, and I couldn't see what was beyond it, it was too dark. When I went inside, my thinking mind started to take over, and what I saw changed a couple times, becuase I was trying to just see what I would see, but I think I just saw what I wanted to see. I saw a large statue of Anubis, holding a flame. But again, I think that was just something I wanted to see.
    Then I opened my eyes.

    Actually, at first it was hard to keep my concentration on the forest, but as time went on it became easier for me to focus and explore. However, I was still aware I was in fact in my living room, and I was able to control what I saw- I just tried not to. Random thoughts did sometimes zoom into my head as well.

    I honestly think I was trying way too hard, which is part of the problem.

    But, I think I might have done it right....... see my mind never shuts up. The harder I try to shut it up, the worse it gets. But when I was meditating (or trying to anyway) my mind was finally quiet...... it was different, but it was nice.

    I'm not going to call out to any gods until I get more experienced with meditating, I didn't feel a connection anyway, even when I made the offering. I wanted to try it to see if anything happened, but nothing did so.

    I'm going to start a regular routine though.... I'm going to meditate at night before I go to bed.....

    Any thoughts on what I did? If you have no clue don't feel to bad, I don't even really know what I did.
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    #2
    Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

    You need to stop.
    Satan is my spirit animal

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      #3
      Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

      Originally posted by Medusa View Post
      You need to stop.
      Explanation please? If I'm doing something wrong, please tell me.......
      Love me for who I am, not for who you want me to be.

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        #4
        Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

        Originally posted by CrystalJackal View Post
        Explanation please? If I'm doing something wrong, please tell me.......
        I think you are flooding our forums with every single little question. I get you want to learn. At 16 we are all so eager and sincere. Just back off a bit. Read a bit and listen. You are going to stress yourself out kid.
        Satan is my spirit animal

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          #5
          Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

          Originally posted by Medusa View Post
          I think you are flooding our forums with every single little question. I get you want to learn. At 16 we are all so eager and sincere. Just back off a bit. Read a bit and listen. You are going to stress yourself out kid.
          I'm sorry............ I really am.....................
          I don't have a lot of resources..... I don't have any other places I can go to ask questions, and reading about things is extremely confusing and extremely stressful to me, trust me I tried, it almost made me give up...... I'm trying to learn but I learn by asking questions..................
          My Aspergers makes me ask questions very impulsively.......
          I'm always stressed out no matter what.........
          Love me for who I am, not for who you want me to be.

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            #6
            Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

            I'm bi polar. I get the frantic mind. And when I see another one my bi polar gets upset.
            You are going to burn out with the questions and people will stop trying to help. Just relax and like I said, read a bit. If not, people will just stop answering your questions or just not care and give you crappy answers. Slow down. Enjoy the place.
            Satan is my spirit animal

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              #7
              Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

              Originally posted by Medusa View Post
              I think you are flooding our forums with every single little question. I get you want to learn. At 16 we are all so eager and sincere. Just back off a bit. Read a bit and listen. You are going to stress yourself out kid.
              Originally posted by CrystalJackal View Post
              I'm sorry............ I really am.....................
              I don't have a lot of resources..... I don't have any other places I can go to ask questions, and reading about things is extremely confusing and extremely stressful to me, trust me I tried, it almost made me give up...... I'm trying to learn but I learn by asking questions..................
              My Aspergers makes me ask questions very impulsively.......
              I'm always stressed out no matter what.........
              No, it's important to be in the middle. To ask questions AND watch, listen and so on. Medusa - if she doesn't ask questions, she will never get the proper answers. CrystalJackal - asking questions is important, but like Medusa said - try looking more in our forums. Perhaps you'll find something useful.
              If one only watches and listens, it will lead only to the person's loss of self esteem and just ruin his/her life. So CrystalJackal - stay in the middle.
              "Fair means that everybody gets what they need. And the only way to get that is to make it happen yourself."



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                #8
                Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                Yeah a good mix is good. I agree Gleb.
                Satan is my spirit animal

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                  #9
                  Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                  Originally posted by CrystalJackal View Post
                  Explanation please? If I'm doing something wrong, please tell me.......
                  You aren't in violation of any forum rules. This thread is slightly redundant and I may merge it with the original since it's effectively reporting on events there. Redundant thread creation is no great sin though unless it gets to the point where you're spamming (you aren't there) and the day that starts with the staff being that anal will probably end with several members banned when they discover that extremely anal staff are extremely anal in multiple arenas.

                  With the rule point covered, a lot of people go straight to the new posts list when they log in and it will tend to exasperate people if they log in and 8 new threads with the same originator all pop up in their unreads. If what you want to say fits perfectly well within an existing thread then you generally net less exasperation by using the existing thread. This is not a formal rule (beyond that site staff reserve the right to merge threads at will) but it is a piece etiquette that makes getting along with people easier.
                  life itself was a lightsaber in his hands; even in the face of treachery and death and hopes gone cold, he burned like a candle in the darkness. Like a star shining in the black eternity of space.

                  Yoda: Dark Rendezvous

                  "But those men who know anything at all about the Light also know that there is a fierceness to its power, like the bare sword of the law, or the white burning of the sun." Suddenly his voice sounded to Will very strong, and very Welsh. "At the very heart, that is. Other things, like humanity, and mercy, and charity, that most good men hold more precious than all else, they do not come first for the Light. Oh, sometimes they are there; often, indeed. But in the very long run the concern of you people is with the absolute good, ahead of all else..."

                  John Rowlands, The Grey King by Susan Cooper

                  "You come from the Lord Adam and the Lady Eve", said Aslan. "And that is both honour enough to erect the head of the poorest beggar, and shame enough to bow the shoulders of the greatest emperor on earth; be content."

                  Aslan, Prince Caspian by CS Lewis


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                    #10
                    Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                    Originally posted by Gleb View Post
                    No, it's important to be in the middle. To ask questions AND watch, listen and so on. Medusa - if she doesn't ask questions, she will never get the proper answers. CrystalJackal - asking questions is important, but like Medusa said - try looking more in our forums. Perhaps you'll find something useful.
                    If one only watches and listens, it will lead only to the person's loss of self esteem and just ruin his/her life. So CrystalJackal - stay in the middle.
                    I know.......... contrary to apparently popular belief, I DO look through the forums, and I DO read. I look through the forums I just never find an answer......... I try and look online....... I never find an answer.......... I just never find an answer................


                    I had three times more questions than what I've posted..... I found the answer to those by reading........ I spent hours trying to find the answers to the questions I posted here but I never found them........ so I asked here........

                    I try, but I always find a way to screw up.......
                    I'm sorry.

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                    Originally posted by MaskedOne View Post
                    You aren't in violation of any forum rules. This thread is slightly redundant and I may merge it with the original since it's effectively reporting on events there. Redundant thread creation is no great sin though unless it gets to the point where you're spamming (you aren't there) and the day that starts with the staff being that anal will probably end with several members banned when they discover that extremely anal staff are extremely anal in multiple arenas.

                    With the rule point covered, a lot of people go straight to the new posts list when they log in and it will tend to exasperate people if they log in and 8 new threads with the same originator all pop up in their unreads. If what you want to say fits perfectly well within an existing thread then you generally net less exasperation by using the existing thread. This is not a formal rule (beyond that site staff reserve the right to merge threads at will) but it is a piece etiquette that makes getting along with people easier.
                    I only started a new thread becuase I didn't know how to add to the original thread.............
                    I'm really terrible with technology.......... I'm sorry.......
                    Love me for who I am, not for who you want me to be.

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                      #11
                      Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                      Originally posted by CrystalJackal View Post
                      I know.......... contrary to apparently popular belief, I DO look through the forums, and I DO read. I look through the forums I just never find an answer......... I try and look online....... I never find an answer.......... I just never find an answer................


                      I had three times more questions than what I've posted..... I found the answer to those by reading........ I spent hours trying to find the answers to the questions I posted here but I never found them........ so I asked here........

                      I try, but I always find a way to screw up.......
                      I'm sorry.

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                      I only started a new thread becuase I didn't know how to add to the original thread.............
                      I'm really terrible with technology.......... I'm sorry.......
                      Like I said, you've made no major errors yet. Getting used to a forum is a learning curve. Calm down. I'm probably the most vocal of the staff right now. If I felt that anything you've done to date required an apology then you would know it in no uncertain terms. You have not made any error requiring worry to date.
                      life itself was a lightsaber in his hands; even in the face of treachery and death and hopes gone cold, he burned like a candle in the darkness. Like a star shining in the black eternity of space.

                      Yoda: Dark Rendezvous

                      "But those men who know anything at all about the Light also know that there is a fierceness to its power, like the bare sword of the law, or the white burning of the sun." Suddenly his voice sounded to Will very strong, and very Welsh. "At the very heart, that is. Other things, like humanity, and mercy, and charity, that most good men hold more precious than all else, they do not come first for the Light. Oh, sometimes they are there; often, indeed. But in the very long run the concern of you people is with the absolute good, ahead of all else..."

                      John Rowlands, The Grey King by Susan Cooper

                      "You come from the Lord Adam and the Lady Eve", said Aslan. "And that is both honour enough to erect the head of the poorest beggar, and shame enough to bow the shoulders of the greatest emperor on earth; be content."

                      Aslan, Prince Caspian by CS Lewis


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                        #12
                        Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                        If MO says its all good,then trust me its all good..
                        MAGIC is MAGIC,black OR white or even blood RED

                        all i ever wanted was a normal life and love.
                        NO TERF EVER WE belong Too.
                        don't stop the tears.let them flood your soul.




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                          #13
                          Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                          Originally posted by MaskedOne View Post
                          Like I said, you've made no major errors yet. Getting used to a forum is a learning curve. Calm down. I'm probably the most vocal of the staff right now. If I felt that anything you've done to date required an apology then you would know it in no uncertain terms. You have not made any error requiring worry to date.
                          Most likely I worry whether it's required or not.

                          Ah, I usually apologize for everything as not to risk offending someone- I have a hard time telling apart tones of voice and I can't tell when someone is angry with me or not. And I know I overreacted... it's very easy to get a reaction out of me...
                          Love me for who I am, not for who you want me to be.

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                            #14
                            Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                            CrystalJackel, with the technique you've described, the problem of causing what one should be allowing is typically the major problem. It takes practice.

                            The advice I can give you is to practice a relaxing meditation, where you count breathes (usually to 7). When you find yourself going off focus, relax extra hard, and let your anticipation just ride.

                            The attitude you want to cultivate is one in which you a quietly, calmly, waiting - but not for anything in particular, or with any feelings of expectation.

                            Once you find that that state of mind be courses easier, then allow yourself to watch the images that take place internally. What you see something you haven't called up yourself, gently put your attention on the thing, and watch, follow, or interact as seemed appropriate.

                            Always being carefully to avoid applying conscious intent.
                            Every moment of a life is a horrible tragedy, a slapstick comedy, dark nihilism, golden illumination, or nothing at all; depending on how we write the story we tell ourselves.

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                              #15
                              Re: Thank you for the advice, this is what happened.......

                              There is a concept of "Being in the moment" or as Ram Dass would put it "Be here now" it is a state of mind where the future has not arrived,and the past has vanished,and all you really have is this second in time to deal with..
                              MAGIC is MAGIC,black OR white or even blood RED

                              all i ever wanted was a normal life and love.
                              NO TERF EVER WE belong Too.
                              don't stop the tears.let them flood your soul.




                              sigpic

                              my new page here,let me know what you think.


                              nothing but the shadow of what was

                              witchvox
                              http://www.witchvox.com/vu/vxposts.html

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