So things are somehow worse.
Not just in life, but in my head.
I don't know what happened...maybe it's just the stress of losing my job and quitting smoking, but twice this week I completely lost my shit in a situation that didn't warrant it (broke my hand in a couple of places when I broke the door on monday...was only just able to keep from hitting something while I was screaming at the teenager a few minutes ago).
It is not normal for me to lose it like that. I'm screaming...face getting red, spitting while I'm screaming...it's taking every ounce of my energy to prevent from doing anything really stupid.
I have no idea what to do. It sneaks up on me...I'm fine and then someone says the "wrong" thing (which may only be an irritation, although both times it's happened I've felt justified in being pissed, just not in the extent).
I don't know what to do. Obviously I NEED to find a job...I can't live on air and fairy farts, but I REALLY don't think that I'm stable enough to do that right now. I don't feel safe or secure.
I don't know what to do.
Not just in life, but in my head.
I don't know what happened...maybe it's just the stress of losing my job and quitting smoking, but twice this week I completely lost my shit in a situation that didn't warrant it (broke my hand in a couple of places when I broke the door on monday...was only just able to keep from hitting something while I was screaming at the teenager a few minutes ago).
It is not normal for me to lose it like that. I'm screaming...face getting red, spitting while I'm screaming...it's taking every ounce of my energy to prevent from doing anything really stupid.
I have no idea what to do. It sneaks up on me...I'm fine and then someone says the "wrong" thing (which may only be an irritation, although both times it's happened I've felt justified in being pissed, just not in the extent).
I don't know what to do. Obviously I NEED to find a job...I can't live on air and fairy farts, but I REALLY don't think that I'm stable enough to do that right now. I don't feel safe or secure.
I don't know what to do.
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