Apologies if this is in the wrong place. I'm going to try to be as clear as I can, but let me know if my explanation is garbled. I feel a little crackers just trying to explain how I pray.
When I sit down to pray and speak with my Guardians, I have a method to it. I let them know that I wish to talk to them, then I go to the same place (mentally/subconsciously) to do so. It's the exact same room every time; I enter facing the same wall of books. One of my Guardians is always sitting in the same chair, across from where I sit, the other is always standing in the same doorway.
Last night, though, there was another entity there. (EDITED TO ADD: Sometimes I will reach out a hand towards my Guardians when I speak them. The way I noticed this unknown is that I saw a gloved hand coming towards me. I balked; neither of my Guardians wear gloves. So when I looked...) He was sitting in a chair that I didn't remember seeing before. I asked who he was and what he wanted, but I didn't get any response. Neither of my Guardians paid him any mind and were waiting for me where they usually did and answered my concerns as normal (except for who the hell this other entity is!).
(Note: I've known my second Guardian (the one sitting) was with me for a while but he didn't answer prayers when I asked his name, either. It wasn't until I was meditating one day that I actually got to meet him.)
I've been trying to convince myself that it's just something my subconscious threw at me and that he's a character from a movie or something like that. Running a google search of a base description of him brings up nothing. He doesn't look like anyone I know or can really remember meeting.
This has never happened before. I haven't prayed or "gone back" since last night because I'm worried. Should I be? Do you think it's just another entity or a Guardian trying to contact me, or a figment of my subconscious?
(Sorry for the novel.)
When I sit down to pray and speak with my Guardians, I have a method to it. I let them know that I wish to talk to them, then I go to the same place (mentally/subconsciously) to do so. It's the exact same room every time; I enter facing the same wall of books. One of my Guardians is always sitting in the same chair, across from where I sit, the other is always standing in the same doorway.
Last night, though, there was another entity there. (EDITED TO ADD: Sometimes I will reach out a hand towards my Guardians when I speak them. The way I noticed this unknown is that I saw a gloved hand coming towards me. I balked; neither of my Guardians wear gloves. So when I looked...) He was sitting in a chair that I didn't remember seeing before. I asked who he was and what he wanted, but I didn't get any response. Neither of my Guardians paid him any mind and were waiting for me where they usually did and answered my concerns as normal (except for who the hell this other entity is!).
(Note: I've known my second Guardian (the one sitting) was with me for a while but he didn't answer prayers when I asked his name, either. It wasn't until I was meditating one day that I actually got to meet him.)
I've been trying to convince myself that it's just something my subconscious threw at me and that he's a character from a movie or something like that. Running a google search of a base description of him brings up nothing. He doesn't look like anyone I know or can really remember meeting.
This has never happened before. I haven't prayed or "gone back" since last night because I'm worried. Should I be? Do you think it's just another entity or a Guardian trying to contact me, or a figment of my subconscious?
(Sorry for the novel.)
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