Last week my girlfriend and I had just performed a simple enough ritual to thank our respective deities for their providence in our lives and to ask for protection from some bad forces in our lives. Afterword, she experienced a rapid and short lived bipolar shift into a highly manic stage that she did not remember several minutes later. During the phase, we had intimate relations. After that, I had a panic attack and my inner eye felt like it was exploding from the garbled mass of messages that i was getting. Everything seemed to level out after she talked me through a grounding meditation (her behavior now being normal) and she wrote it off as a "psychic attack" from the mass of energy. I can't quite accept that. There were some serious issues in the ritual and I am wondering how bad this could get and how I can start fixing it. In order of occurrence, here are the problems I saw in the ritual:
1: she smudged several minutes before opening the circle, leaving a gap for bad things to get into the space.
2: after spreading the salt i set both feet outside the circle to turn off the porch light. I then entered the circle.
3: we should have stopped there, or when the candle representing fire wouldn't light.
4: there was an unknown masculine presence in the circle. Neither of us could identify it.
5: I channeled a bit more lunar energy than I would have liked.
6: I participated in intimacy with a very different personality of my girlfriend than I normally see.
So, it looks to me like there could be a serious issue afoot.
I am posting this to ask for possible ideas of what caused the attack(s) and how to get it to go away or stay away.
1: she smudged several minutes before opening the circle, leaving a gap for bad things to get into the space.
2: after spreading the salt i set both feet outside the circle to turn off the porch light. I then entered the circle.
3: we should have stopped there, or when the candle representing fire wouldn't light.
4: there was an unknown masculine presence in the circle. Neither of us could identify it.
5: I channeled a bit more lunar energy than I would have liked.
6: I participated in intimacy with a very different personality of my girlfriend than I normally see.
So, it looks to me like there could be a serious issue afoot.
I am posting this to ask for possible ideas of what caused the attack(s) and how to get it to go away or stay away.
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