So, many of you know that we didn't change what we were doing with our kids(especially in terms of ritual like prayer) until we moved away from my in-laws. It would have gotten far too messy too fast.
My three year old is fine. My daughter, though, is experiencing a lot of anxiety about the fact that I, in particular, no longer always pray to a male figure. Given how very gender segregated mormon culture is, I'm not too surprised, but I'm really not sure where to go from here.
We're working through a lot of things that my MIL told her: That you can get married elsewhere, but you have to be married in the Mormon temple to a boy to be with your family forever. That it's better to be a mommy then a doctor or a musician(and the implication that you can't be both). I have no idea what she told her about God, but there's a LOT of anxiety attached. When we were still living with them, MIL got angry with her for wanting to pray to Heavenly Mother, and later for trying to put her hands on MIL's head and bless her when she was feeling sick(only boys can do that--if it had been one of her male cousins it would have been a "oh, isn't that touching...someday he'll have the priesthood and do it for real" moment).
Right now, she listens to what we do, and says a prayer to Odin, following the old format that she was taught. We keep trying to stress that she can pray however she wants, but it's obviously stressful for her, and I'm not sure how to diffuse the situation and give her confidence and assurance. I'd like to introduce her to ideas about the goddess, but it seems as though the idea of Heavenly Mother being silent and unacceptable to pray to sunk in far more deeply then I ever would have imagined.
I've also tried things like saying more generic night prayers to the sun and moon, or Father Sky and Mother Earth, and she's rejected that outright. No longer wants to pray to the Mormon "heavenly father" either, since we don't anymore, even though we've said it's ok if she does.
My three year old is fine. My daughter, though, is experiencing a lot of anxiety about the fact that I, in particular, no longer always pray to a male figure. Given how very gender segregated mormon culture is, I'm not too surprised, but I'm really not sure where to go from here.
We're working through a lot of things that my MIL told her: That you can get married elsewhere, but you have to be married in the Mormon temple to a boy to be with your family forever. That it's better to be a mommy then a doctor or a musician(and the implication that you can't be both). I have no idea what she told her about God, but there's a LOT of anxiety attached. When we were still living with them, MIL got angry with her for wanting to pray to Heavenly Mother, and later for trying to put her hands on MIL's head and bless her when she was feeling sick(only boys can do that--if it had been one of her male cousins it would have been a "oh, isn't that touching...someday he'll have the priesthood and do it for real" moment).
Right now, she listens to what we do, and says a prayer to Odin, following the old format that she was taught. We keep trying to stress that she can pray however she wants, but it's obviously stressful for her, and I'm not sure how to diffuse the situation and give her confidence and assurance. I'd like to introduce her to ideas about the goddess, but it seems as though the idea of Heavenly Mother being silent and unacceptable to pray to sunk in far more deeply then I ever would have imagined.
I've also tried things like saying more generic night prayers to the sun and moon, or Father Sky and Mother Earth, and she's rejected that outright. No longer wants to pray to the Mormon "heavenly father" either, since we don't anymore, even though we've said it's ok if she does.
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