Entry #1 - Self Dedication 2/24/2013
Performed a self-dedication ritual, mostly according to the self-dedication found in Buckland's Blue. Beforehand I took a short bath of salt (both table and epsom). I added a call to the guardians of the elemental watchtowers, and made specific goodbyes to them when I snuffed their candles. The elemental candles were white tea-lights that I drew elemental symbols on each. I'm not even 100% sure I got the directions proper. Many fumbles and bumbles were had, especially verbally. I sometimes felt uncomfortable using the words Goddess and God, and alternated them for "Universal Energies" or suchlike. I don't know why I did that. Also feeling a bit nervous about my girlfriend coming home to find the altar in the living room, enough though she not only knows of and approves my choice, but wants to learn as well. I also don't know why that is.
The Good
1. Easily visualized the light around my body expanding to fill the circle.
2. Easily visualized the energy from #1 directing through my arm to light the blue flame as I drew the circle.
The "Needs Work
1. Space was tiny. Stepped out of the circle on accident due to size.
2. Didn't feel anything when the BBB said I might. If I did, it was subtle and taken for other things.
3. I had no name for myself yet, so I said those words and.. had no name. I fumbled a bit and asked to be provided one.
So all in all, not a terrible session. I'm definitely rusty.
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Forgot to mention my anointing oil.
Recipe: Crisco Vegetable Oil, Bay Leaves (x3), Cinnamon Stick
Performed a self-dedication ritual, mostly according to the self-dedication found in Buckland's Blue. Beforehand I took a short bath of salt (both table and epsom). I added a call to the guardians of the elemental watchtowers, and made specific goodbyes to them when I snuffed their candles. The elemental candles were white tea-lights that I drew elemental symbols on each. I'm not even 100% sure I got the directions proper. Many fumbles and bumbles were had, especially verbally. I sometimes felt uncomfortable using the words Goddess and God, and alternated them for "Universal Energies" or suchlike. I don't know why I did that. Also feeling a bit nervous about my girlfriend coming home to find the altar in the living room, enough though she not only knows of and approves my choice, but wants to learn as well. I also don't know why that is.
The Good
1. Easily visualized the light around my body expanding to fill the circle.
2. Easily visualized the energy from #1 directing through my arm to light the blue flame as I drew the circle.
The "Needs Work
1. Space was tiny. Stepped out of the circle on accident due to size.
2. Didn't feel anything when the BBB said I might. If I did, it was subtle and taken for other things.
3. I had no name for myself yet, so I said those words and.. had no name. I fumbled a bit and asked to be provided one.
So all in all, not a terrible session. I'm definitely rusty.
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Forgot to mention my anointing oil.
Recipe: Crisco Vegetable Oil, Bay Leaves (x3), Cinnamon Stick
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