So I swear I am hitting my mid-life crisis stage early. lol.
Okay, so the deal is I am buying a house that I have wanted since childhood. For only $50,000.....that is $26,000 less than what it is worth. We know the lady who owns it and she is so ready to leave that she is discounting it because I have known her all my life. Plus it is two stories - awesome factor there. I should be happy right? Yeah, if only it was that simple.
Originally, I was planning on just giving up my belongings and getting a travel trailer to be a modern gypsy with the renaissance fair groups once I went back to college and graduated. This has been my dream for many years - one I didn't think was really possible until just a couple of years ago when I decided to make it work. This I was working on this when the house deal came up - I jumped on the house deal. Now, I feel like I'm giving up on my dreams by settling down. I mean, there is so much I haven't done - so many places I haven't been. I'm not even sure I want to live in this town really. But this way I am close to family and can start a homestead style life - something I imagined doing after traveling with the fairs.
I'm getting to the point where I'm very unhappy about everything I've done in my life - or rather what I haven't done. Today, I actually thought about getting in my car and just driving until I run out of gas....just to see where I end up. Living out of my car for a while - just to say I've done it.
I'm only 26 years old - I shouldn't be hitting a mid life crisis period yet, right? Has anyone else felt this way?
Okay, so the deal is I am buying a house that I have wanted since childhood. For only $50,000.....that is $26,000 less than what it is worth. We know the lady who owns it and she is so ready to leave that she is discounting it because I have known her all my life. Plus it is two stories - awesome factor there. I should be happy right? Yeah, if only it was that simple.
Originally, I was planning on just giving up my belongings and getting a travel trailer to be a modern gypsy with the renaissance fair groups once I went back to college and graduated. This has been my dream for many years - one I didn't think was really possible until just a couple of years ago when I decided to make it work. This I was working on this when the house deal came up - I jumped on the house deal. Now, I feel like I'm giving up on my dreams by settling down. I mean, there is so much I haven't done - so many places I haven't been. I'm not even sure I want to live in this town really. But this way I am close to family and can start a homestead style life - something I imagined doing after traveling with the fairs.
I'm getting to the point where I'm very unhappy about everything I've done in my life - or rather what I haven't done. Today, I actually thought about getting in my car and just driving until I run out of gas....just to see where I end up. Living out of my car for a while - just to say I've done it.
I'm only 26 years old - I shouldn't be hitting a mid life crisis period yet, right? Has anyone else felt this way?
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