Hey all~
So... I'm jumping back into my Witchy boat and feel pretty good about it. I had a hard time there for a bit with some extreme skeptic atheism that ruined the relationship between rational/skeptic me and spiritual me. I've come back with the idea that the God(s), Goddess(es) and deity in general are not some sort of conscious force that exists outside of our idea of them but instead a sort of higher self all people have that interacts with the energy of everything in the universe. (Ex: Me talking to the Goddess Diana for strength is just me accessing a higher part of me that's more intune with the rest of everything)
This hypothesis isn't really my hardfast belief and is subject to change. No worries. My reason for posting is this:
I was in deep meditation and I did some affirmations. They were pretty personal but one included the line "I am psychic". After saying that particular line a few times, I felt a spot on my forehead become... light? Like it was opened up and even though I could feel the chair under me I felt as if part of me was floating. There was this estatic, joyous feeling during the experience and after I finished my affirmations I decided to be still and just take in the feeling I was experiencing. This is when I heard a clear message. It came to me without force and in voice that was definitely not mine nor my inner narrator. (The message was personal too, but it involved some guidance on getting back into Witchcraft and Paganism)
So, my big concern is, of course, have I gone mad? If I had read someone else saying this I would probably consider that they were delusional to think someone spoke to them in their head. However, the ease, voice, feeling and accompanying emotional overload from this message has me thinking it was something more. Even after I pulled myself up and out of meditation I felt very emotional. Happy and moved, close to tears.
Gah, am I crazy?
~Astrayus
So... I'm jumping back into my Witchy boat and feel pretty good about it. I had a hard time there for a bit with some extreme skeptic atheism that ruined the relationship between rational/skeptic me and spiritual me. I've come back with the idea that the God(s), Goddess(es) and deity in general are not some sort of conscious force that exists outside of our idea of them but instead a sort of higher self all people have that interacts with the energy of everything in the universe. (Ex: Me talking to the Goddess Diana for strength is just me accessing a higher part of me that's more intune with the rest of everything)
This hypothesis isn't really my hardfast belief and is subject to change. No worries. My reason for posting is this:
I was in deep meditation and I did some affirmations. They were pretty personal but one included the line "I am psychic". After saying that particular line a few times, I felt a spot on my forehead become... light? Like it was opened up and even though I could feel the chair under me I felt as if part of me was floating. There was this estatic, joyous feeling during the experience and after I finished my affirmations I decided to be still and just take in the feeling I was experiencing. This is when I heard a clear message. It came to me without force and in voice that was definitely not mine nor my inner narrator. (The message was personal too, but it involved some guidance on getting back into Witchcraft and Paganism)
So, my big concern is, of course, have I gone mad? If I had read someone else saying this I would probably consider that they were delusional to think someone spoke to them in their head. However, the ease, voice, feeling and accompanying emotional overload from this message has me thinking it was something more. Even after I pulled myself up and out of meditation I felt very emotional. Happy and moved, close to tears.
Gah, am I crazy?
~Astrayus
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