Hello! I've been getting kind of weird feelings lately and I'm not sure if they're in my head (since I get SAD and it's the middle of winter) or if (at the risk of sounding crazy) I can actually sense a spirit's presence. I think that's kind of rare which is why I think I'm going crazy but first I'll explain.
It started when I was a kid, which is also when this SAD stuff started so I always thought I was imagining it. I thought I saw shadows of people on the walls of my house when no one else was around. One was in the shape of a man with an old-fashioned farmer's hat and I thought I saw this shape in the second floor bathroom of my house or the downstairs living room, the corner of the house pointing towards the cemetery. But it was always out of the corner of my eye, so I thought I was seeing things. There was also a woman shape I only saw once who my mom swears still pops up now and then only when she's around. I also saw a young girl at a 4th of July party when I was 9ish, I asked my mom who the "other girl here" was and she said I was the only younger girl there. (there are 3 marked and one unmarked graves outside my house; John Briggs, Elizabeth Briggs, and Eunice Briggs. All died in the 1800's. We live on what was either their pasture or their garden).
When I was in 8th grade, I played with a ouija board in the spare room and unknowingly disposed of it improperly (burned it). After that my female friends said they got the creeps when they walked into that room, and my little brother and mother refused to go in there for longer than ten minutes tops. I also felt weird about the room but chalked it up to my imagination. This past Samhain I figured I'd give it a shot and ask (and eventually felt compelled to demand) any negative energies/spirits to leave. I guess the room is a little better since now my mom is decorating it...
Recently, I fell unexpectedly pregnant and I will admit I felt I was not able to responsibly support and raise a child (no money, full-time student, etc). I panicked and had an abortion and now it is the biggest regret of my life. However, I sometimes get the same feeling you would get when a young child is following you around; slightly protective, open and almost nurturing. But I am not sure if I am imagining this from guilt and remorse!
Finally, (and this also happened around the time of Samhain and again just now) I get this feeling of being watched from a distance and images of mangled bodies randomly pop into my head; images of a human face with empty eye sockets, gaunt as death, or as if a person had been hit by a car. This always happens at night when I am feeling lonely and am asking my deceased grandfather or any ancestor to "talk" to me. No one has ever answered to my knowledge though.
Am I just crazy with an overactive imagination or is it possible there is actually something going on? Today makes me question my sanity....sorry for the long post....
It started when I was a kid, which is also when this SAD stuff started so I always thought I was imagining it. I thought I saw shadows of people on the walls of my house when no one else was around. One was in the shape of a man with an old-fashioned farmer's hat and I thought I saw this shape in the second floor bathroom of my house or the downstairs living room, the corner of the house pointing towards the cemetery. But it was always out of the corner of my eye, so I thought I was seeing things. There was also a woman shape I only saw once who my mom swears still pops up now and then only when she's around. I also saw a young girl at a 4th of July party when I was 9ish, I asked my mom who the "other girl here" was and she said I was the only younger girl there. (there are 3 marked and one unmarked graves outside my house; John Briggs, Elizabeth Briggs, and Eunice Briggs. All died in the 1800's. We live on what was either their pasture or their garden).
When I was in 8th grade, I played with a ouija board in the spare room and unknowingly disposed of it improperly (burned it). After that my female friends said they got the creeps when they walked into that room, and my little brother and mother refused to go in there for longer than ten minutes tops. I also felt weird about the room but chalked it up to my imagination. This past Samhain I figured I'd give it a shot and ask (and eventually felt compelled to demand) any negative energies/spirits to leave. I guess the room is a little better since now my mom is decorating it...
Recently, I fell unexpectedly pregnant and I will admit I felt I was not able to responsibly support and raise a child (no money, full-time student, etc). I panicked and had an abortion and now it is the biggest regret of my life. However, I sometimes get the same feeling you would get when a young child is following you around; slightly protective, open and almost nurturing. But I am not sure if I am imagining this from guilt and remorse!
Finally, (and this also happened around the time of Samhain and again just now) I get this feeling of being watched from a distance and images of mangled bodies randomly pop into my head; images of a human face with empty eye sockets, gaunt as death, or as if a person had been hit by a car. This always happens at night when I am feeling lonely and am asking my deceased grandfather or any ancestor to "talk" to me. No one has ever answered to my knowledge though.
Am I just crazy with an overactive imagination or is it possible there is actually something going on? Today makes me question my sanity....sorry for the long post....
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