Hi everyone, I hope I'm posting in the right section. I'm having a crisis (or a few related ones), that I think I know logically aren't true, but emotions are clouding my judgement. I euthanised my beloved kitty this morning. She was a senior kitty and has been having senior-related health issues, but nothing that made me decide to euthanise her. She had a bit of an issue this past week but she was coming out of it. But, last night, she developed respiratory distress and I chose to euthanise her since she wasn't going to come out of it and be the kitty she was.
Yesterday, we bought a betta fish, and I had this thought that probably sprung from an idea of replacement (when people buy a cat when the family cat has passed on). This thought was that bringing a soul into the house means that another has to leave. But I mean, it's a fish and a cat. I've bought fish before without an issue, and I wonder if I only thought it because for the past week I've been trying to assess my cat's quality of life and decide if I should euthanise her or not. Please just tell me that that was my overactive mind and not a warning meaning that I'm responsible for my cat's death.
Also, after she started getting a bit better, we were optimistic and bought her some different food to tempt her, set up her living area to be safer for her. Did our optimism have any effect on anything, do you think?
Yesterday, she had one of the best days she had in a while. Which made me get my hopes up that she is going to be with me for a bit longer. I was giving her attention and she was just rubbing up against my hand, quite a lot. Looking back, I wonder if this is her saying goodbye? It was almost exactly 12 hours later that she went into respiratory distress.
Thank you.
Yesterday, we bought a betta fish, and I had this thought that probably sprung from an idea of replacement (when people buy a cat when the family cat has passed on). This thought was that bringing a soul into the house means that another has to leave. But I mean, it's a fish and a cat. I've bought fish before without an issue, and I wonder if I only thought it because for the past week I've been trying to assess my cat's quality of life and decide if I should euthanise her or not. Please just tell me that that was my overactive mind and not a warning meaning that I'm responsible for my cat's death.
Also, after she started getting a bit better, we were optimistic and bought her some different food to tempt her, set up her living area to be safer for her. Did our optimism have any effect on anything, do you think?
Yesterday, she had one of the best days she had in a while. Which made me get my hopes up that she is going to be with me for a bit longer. I was giving her attention and she was just rubbing up against my hand, quite a lot. Looking back, I wonder if this is her saying goodbye? It was almost exactly 12 hours later that she went into respiratory distress.
Thank you.
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