There is much about the spiritual world I cannot even begin to understand.
I don't know why I am writing this, if anything to just release some inner turmoil or find a kindred spirit among anyone who might read it.
my heart and mind are still struggling to find the truth of my existence and tell right from wrong. should i believe this or that? should I do this or that? Is this wrong? is that right? what if I choose the wrong path?
oh my goodness such a burden on my soul.
my journey has been a chaotic one, raised as a christian in a strict set of rules and beliefs. which I still respect and fight with myself on whether or not its wrong or right.
im not sure how my path as a "pagan" began or when honestly. I still have trouble saying that is what I am because in my heart I dont KNOW what I am. i just know i dont agree or follow any set path.
for those of you who ARE sure. How is it so? what happened to you to let you know your path is your right path? How did you know what to do?
perhaps I am just ranting. my mind has been arguing over so many points trying to find its footing that I am finding myself lost without a symbolic rock in which to hang onto. I just needed to get some weights off my heart I think.
I no longer know who or what to pray to for guidance.
I grew up with one god and when I got older I felt abandoned by the god. and yet I possibly feel the tug of another from subtle relations to that god in the last 5 years. yet I am so confused. How do you know what to do? I don't want to make a spirit creature angry by doing the wrong thing or following after the incorrect path.
am I making any sense?
my bodies spirit is confused and torn.
I don't know why I am writing this, if anything to just release some inner turmoil or find a kindred spirit among anyone who might read it.
my heart and mind are still struggling to find the truth of my existence and tell right from wrong. should i believe this or that? should I do this or that? Is this wrong? is that right? what if I choose the wrong path?
oh my goodness such a burden on my soul.
my journey has been a chaotic one, raised as a christian in a strict set of rules and beliefs. which I still respect and fight with myself on whether or not its wrong or right.
im not sure how my path as a "pagan" began or when honestly. I still have trouble saying that is what I am because in my heart I dont KNOW what I am. i just know i dont agree or follow any set path.
for those of you who ARE sure. How is it so? what happened to you to let you know your path is your right path? How did you know what to do?
perhaps I am just ranting. my mind has been arguing over so many points trying to find its footing that I am finding myself lost without a symbolic rock in which to hang onto. I just needed to get some weights off my heart I think.
I no longer know who or what to pray to for guidance.
I grew up with one god and when I got older I felt abandoned by the god. and yet I possibly feel the tug of another from subtle relations to that god in the last 5 years. yet I am so confused. How do you know what to do? I don't want to make a spirit creature angry by doing the wrong thing or following after the incorrect path.
am I making any sense?
my bodies spirit is confused and torn.
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