Forgive me. Whilst paganism has always been in my heart, and I have led a spiritual life, I never really pursued or aligned myself with any 'faith' until recently. I've read books, countless internet websites, and yet it all seems so rigid and doesn't really correlate to how I feel about my views and beliefs.
I'm hoping, as you're all far more educated in these matters, that you can help me find out what the 'term' is for my path.
I am:
psychic
medium
healer (of sorts)
I believe in:
nature
energy
that energy can be manipulated and is an unseen force
that 'God' is Mother Nature and everything is One and we are all strands of the same energy
karma
reincarnation
divination
spirits
green witchcraft
For ages, I associated myself more with Buddhism, because of the absence of a God and I truly respect and agree with the Noble Eightfold path.
But even then, I still believe in grounding, energy, spirits, felt a strong pull to the moon, celebrated Samhain etc.
I've been told many things by wiccans, witches about who I am, but one that stayed with me is that the Goddess is on my side.
What changed all of this is that years ago, I was unhappy, and I was meditating (like I love to) in the sea. For the first time ever, I asked for the karma to be sent back to the people that wronged me, if it was fair and they deserved it, and for the first time in my life I felt someone listening to me. I'd never experienced it before. The only name I can call 'it' is Mother.
What troubles me is all of this relating worship to Gods and Goddesses and seemingly putting gender on deities. I don't believe in gender. I believe in my Mother, (I have yet to feel a connection a 'Father') but everything I read is all about the Lady and the Lord, Gods and Goddesses and i cannot truly connect when I feel like i don't belong if I don't acknowledge the male and female.
Can anyone help me? Tell me what sort of path this is considered? Recommend any books?
Thank you in advance for taking the time out to help me.
I'm hoping, as you're all far more educated in these matters, that you can help me find out what the 'term' is for my path.
I am:
psychic
medium
healer (of sorts)
I believe in:
nature
energy
that energy can be manipulated and is an unseen force
that 'God' is Mother Nature and everything is One and we are all strands of the same energy
karma
reincarnation
divination
spirits
green witchcraft
For ages, I associated myself more with Buddhism, because of the absence of a God and I truly respect and agree with the Noble Eightfold path.
But even then, I still believe in grounding, energy, spirits, felt a strong pull to the moon, celebrated Samhain etc.
I've been told many things by wiccans, witches about who I am, but one that stayed with me is that the Goddess is on my side.
What changed all of this is that years ago, I was unhappy, and I was meditating (like I love to) in the sea. For the first time ever, I asked for the karma to be sent back to the people that wronged me, if it was fair and they deserved it, and for the first time in my life I felt someone listening to me. I'd never experienced it before. The only name I can call 'it' is Mother.
What troubles me is all of this relating worship to Gods and Goddesses and seemingly putting gender on deities. I don't believe in gender. I believe in my Mother, (I have yet to feel a connection a 'Father') but everything I read is all about the Lady and the Lord, Gods and Goddesses and i cannot truly connect when I feel like i don't belong if I don't acknowledge the male and female.
Can anyone help me? Tell me what sort of path this is considered? Recommend any books?
Thank you in advance for taking the time out to help me.
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