First, thank you SO MUCH to everyone who answered my previous thread.... of course, nothing bad happened to me and I worried for absolutely nothing........ no surprise there.
Sorry I keep bugging you guys, I'm just trying to understand what I'm doing.....
A couple people mentioned I should wait before trying to call out to gods. I agree with you- I specifically called out to gods this one time because I was making an offering to Bast. I probably won't try calling out to gods for a while.
So I don't really know what I did, but basically this was what happened- and if you guys could tell me if I'm doing something wrong or dangerous that would be fantastic.
I spent a few minutes just listening to instrumental (I listened to it through the entire time) and calming and quieting my mind. Then, I offered the items I had on a table in front of me to Bast.
I asked the gods if they wanted anything of me to send me a sign. (As someone else brought to my attention, I did specify GODS. I did not invite any ONE- like demons and spirits. So at least I didn't do that.)
Okay so after that is where I might have done something wrong. A friend of mine told me to try visualizing myself somewhere, so I visualized myself in a field with tall grass. There was a forest on the left, so I walked through it for a while. Eventually I came to a cave, and went inside. I wandered around, eventually coming across steps, and finally a stone door that blended in with the wall of the cave. I opened it, and I couldn't see what was beyond it, it was too dark. When I went inside, my thinking mind started to take over, and what I saw changed a couple times, becuase I was trying to just see what I would see, but I think I just saw what I wanted to see. I saw a large statue of Anubis, holding a flame. But again, I think that was just something I wanted to see.
Then I opened my eyes.
Actually, at first it was hard to keep my concentration on the forest, but as time went on it became easier for me to focus and explore. However, I was still aware I was in fact in my living room, and I was able to control what I saw- I just tried not to. Random thoughts did sometimes zoom into my head as well.
I honestly think I was trying way too hard, which is part of the problem.
But, I think I might have done it right....... see my mind never shuts up. The harder I try to shut it up, the worse it gets. But when I was meditating (or trying to anyway) my mind was finally quiet...... it was different, but it was nice.
I'm not going to call out to any gods until I get more experienced with meditating, I didn't feel a connection anyway, even when I made the offering. I wanted to try it to see if anything happened, but nothing did so.
I'm going to start a regular routine though.... I'm going to meditate at night before I go to bed.....
Any thoughts on what I did? If you have no clue don't feel to bad, I don't even really know what I did.
Sorry I keep bugging you guys, I'm just trying to understand what I'm doing.....
A couple people mentioned I should wait before trying to call out to gods. I agree with you- I specifically called out to gods this one time because I was making an offering to Bast. I probably won't try calling out to gods for a while.
So I don't really know what I did, but basically this was what happened- and if you guys could tell me if I'm doing something wrong or dangerous that would be fantastic.
I spent a few minutes just listening to instrumental (I listened to it through the entire time) and calming and quieting my mind. Then, I offered the items I had on a table in front of me to Bast.
I asked the gods if they wanted anything of me to send me a sign. (As someone else brought to my attention, I did specify GODS. I did not invite any ONE- like demons and spirits. So at least I didn't do that.)
Okay so after that is where I might have done something wrong. A friend of mine told me to try visualizing myself somewhere, so I visualized myself in a field with tall grass. There was a forest on the left, so I walked through it for a while. Eventually I came to a cave, and went inside. I wandered around, eventually coming across steps, and finally a stone door that blended in with the wall of the cave. I opened it, and I couldn't see what was beyond it, it was too dark. When I went inside, my thinking mind started to take over, and what I saw changed a couple times, becuase I was trying to just see what I would see, but I think I just saw what I wanted to see. I saw a large statue of Anubis, holding a flame. But again, I think that was just something I wanted to see.
Then I opened my eyes.
Actually, at first it was hard to keep my concentration on the forest, but as time went on it became easier for me to focus and explore. However, I was still aware I was in fact in my living room, and I was able to control what I saw- I just tried not to. Random thoughts did sometimes zoom into my head as well.
I honestly think I was trying way too hard, which is part of the problem.
But, I think I might have done it right....... see my mind never shuts up. The harder I try to shut it up, the worse it gets. But when I was meditating (or trying to anyway) my mind was finally quiet...... it was different, but it was nice.
I'm not going to call out to any gods until I get more experienced with meditating, I didn't feel a connection anyway, even when I made the offering. I wanted to try it to see if anything happened, but nothing did so.
I'm going to start a regular routine though.... I'm going to meditate at night before I go to bed.....
Any thoughts on what I did? If you have no clue don't feel to bad, I don't even really know what I did.
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