I really made it through the winter great this year, but around Feb I started to feel really down again. My motivation suffered and my productivity with it. In spring I thought it would get better, and it has a little but I still have a lot of days where I have to force myself to get out of bed and accomplishing anything feels like so much work. Maybe it will go away...usually it does and I have to get through it, but a couple of times in my life it hasn't and I'm a bit worried. I'm just so BORED. Like nothing is interesting, nothing makes me happy, etc.
I don't know if I should talk to someone? I feel a bit wary....we don't really have free counselling here as far as I know, and I don't know if my public health insurance covers psychology? I think it does but i'm not positive. Also I'm wary about the language factor. I'm fluent in German but I DO NOT want to go to therapy in German. I feel like if I go I don't want to be thinking about the words I'm saying but the feelings behind them and as German is my second language and words come fairly naturally, they don't when I'm emotional and when I'm emotional I just get so muddled and I don't want to worry about that! I guess, I'd rather do something on my own.....
I don't really know what that is though. I can't take St. Johns Wort because I'm on the pill (and for those that follow some of the "woman problem" threads, I have to be on the pill because life without those hormones are pure hell). I take fish oil, I try to eat a really healthy diet and stay active. But I don't know...something feels "off" and maybe it's just loneliness again, or maybe I'm a bit stressed, but I don't know and I don't know what to do
Prayers would be appreciated of course, but if anyone has any advice I'd appreciate it as well.
I don't know if I should talk to someone? I feel a bit wary....we don't really have free counselling here as far as I know, and I don't know if my public health insurance covers psychology? I think it does but i'm not positive. Also I'm wary about the language factor. I'm fluent in German but I DO NOT want to go to therapy in German. I feel like if I go I don't want to be thinking about the words I'm saying but the feelings behind them and as German is my second language and words come fairly naturally, they don't when I'm emotional and when I'm emotional I just get so muddled and I don't want to worry about that! I guess, I'd rather do something on my own.....
I don't really know what that is though. I can't take St. Johns Wort because I'm on the pill (and for those that follow some of the "woman problem" threads, I have to be on the pill because life without those hormones are pure hell). I take fish oil, I try to eat a really healthy diet and stay active. But I don't know...something feels "off" and maybe it's just loneliness again, or maybe I'm a bit stressed, but I don't know and I don't know what to do
Prayers would be appreciated of course, but if anyone has any advice I'd appreciate it as well.
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