As you guys know, I've been asking a lot of questions, and reading a lot about basic candle magic. As you also know, I have a close relative on my husband's side who is consistently ill. She has a tendency to say very hurtful things, and whether or not you revolve around her heath is often a measuring stick about whether your're one of the "good" kids in the family.
For the past few weeks, growing stronger since she took a turn for the worse a week ago, I have had a very strong impulse to, in addition to some candles that I light for various friends and family, designate one to her "going home". I don't feel any malicious intent attached to this impulse, simply a strong feeling that she has finished what she has to learn in this life, and at this point her white-knuckle grip on life is doing her, and those around her, more harm then good. If she passed, then there would be a lot of healing that would be able to take place that can't within the family.
She makes me angry sometimes, but there are no feelings of revenge, anger, or the like attached to this. No creepy desire to act in any other way, either (in case you're wondering). It's a very peaceful, calm feeling. At the same time, however, I feel slightly uncomfortable given the gravity of such an impulse.
What are your thoughts? Is that something ethical to put energy towards, or not?
For the past few weeks, growing stronger since she took a turn for the worse a week ago, I have had a very strong impulse to, in addition to some candles that I light for various friends and family, designate one to her "going home". I don't feel any malicious intent attached to this impulse, simply a strong feeling that she has finished what she has to learn in this life, and at this point her white-knuckle grip on life is doing her, and those around her, more harm then good. If she passed, then there would be a lot of healing that would be able to take place that can't within the family.
She makes me angry sometimes, but there are no feelings of revenge, anger, or the like attached to this. No creepy desire to act in any other way, either (in case you're wondering). It's a very peaceful, calm feeling. At the same time, however, I feel slightly uncomfortable given the gravity of such an impulse.
What are your thoughts? Is that something ethical to put energy towards, or not?
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