Warning: gets very whiny and personal.
This sounds downright stupid and ridiculous, but I'm frustrated and afraid that I might just be your typical New Ager.
And I don't want to be.
I have been influenced by Buddhism and yoga (and various websites connected to those themes, some New Age sites included) and I feel a connection towards the Buddhist goddess/bodhisattva Kuan Yin, who is also very popular amongst the New Agers. I don't have a solid tradition and I guess I tend to get a bit too "fluffy" about spirituality from time to time. And I am deeply ashamed of that. Other people seem to run around with those cool war gods or whatever (let me elaborate: I don't want to be cool or my religion to be cool or to be devoted to a war god, I just don't want to be this pathetic. I guess I'm just jealous of people whose religion goes along with their personality.)
In Pagan circles it sometimes seem that the worst thing you could be is a New Ager (and believe it, in many things other than religion I have already been the worst possible thing and the ultimate failure*, I don't want this to be yet another "accomplishment" on the list.). And personally, I don't relate to much of the New Age stuff, let's say indigo children, 2012, nice folks being some higher frequency beings and your tiresome boss being a grey lizard man from outer space...
I do understand that those people too have their faith and practices and I don't want to prevent them from practicing it. That is just not a path I'd walk myself. I just feel stupid amongst other Pagans or even Buddhists or whatevers, even the New Agers. But I guess that's another thing and I'm not going to post another whiny thread on it.
(And sorry if someone here identifies with the New Age movement, but this is the image I've got, feel free to correct whatever mistakes there might be.)
Thanks for reading.
* I'm not exaggerating but when you already at the age of seven realise that in almost every thing, from the alphabetical order to sports results you are the last one, it sort of sinks in and doesn't exactly pave the road to any kind of success. Sorry for venting like this but I do get frustrated every now and then. And I don't want to hear how that is not true, it just wanted to tell it and now let's get back to the topic which is banishing the "New Age demon" out of me, not my personal history. Sorry to be this blunt, I mean no harm.
This sounds downright stupid and ridiculous, but I'm frustrated and afraid that I might just be your typical New Ager.
And I don't want to be.
I have been influenced by Buddhism and yoga (and various websites connected to those themes, some New Age sites included) and I feel a connection towards the Buddhist goddess/bodhisattva Kuan Yin, who is also very popular amongst the New Agers. I don't have a solid tradition and I guess I tend to get a bit too "fluffy" about spirituality from time to time. And I am deeply ashamed of that. Other people seem to run around with those cool war gods or whatever (let me elaborate: I don't want to be cool or my religion to be cool or to be devoted to a war god, I just don't want to be this pathetic. I guess I'm just jealous of people whose religion goes along with their personality.)
In Pagan circles it sometimes seem that the worst thing you could be is a New Ager (and believe it, in many things other than religion I have already been the worst possible thing and the ultimate failure*, I don't want this to be yet another "accomplishment" on the list.). And personally, I don't relate to much of the New Age stuff, let's say indigo children, 2012, nice folks being some higher frequency beings and your tiresome boss being a grey lizard man from outer space...
I do understand that those people too have their faith and practices and I don't want to prevent them from practicing it. That is just not a path I'd walk myself. I just feel stupid amongst other Pagans or even Buddhists or whatevers, even the New Agers. But I guess that's another thing and I'm not going to post another whiny thread on it.
(And sorry if someone here identifies with the New Age movement, but this is the image I've got, feel free to correct whatever mistakes there might be.)
Thanks for reading.
* I'm not exaggerating but when you already at the age of seven realise that in almost every thing, from the alphabetical order to sports results you are the last one, it sort of sinks in and doesn't exactly pave the road to any kind of success. Sorry for venting like this but I do get frustrated every now and then. And I don't want to hear how that is not true, it just wanted to tell it and now let's get back to the topic which is banishing the "New Age demon" out of me, not my personal history. Sorry to be this blunt, I mean no harm.
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