Uhm...

So I hopped on the scale today and discovered that my weight is up to 165lbs. I have never in my life weighed this much. And I understand that to some people, it does not seem like a big deal. My roommate is a bigger girl, and I try not to talk about it too much around her because she is trying to lose a lot more weight than I am and I feel like a douche. But I'm five feet and eight inches tall.

Usually, I weigh about 130lbs.

165 =/= 130.

Yeah. It's my fault. I let myself get into this like...hole with everything lately. I stopped keeping track of things and doing what I knew I needed to do, so clearly now I need to fix that. A lot. I know it doesn't seem like a big deal to some people, and if you want to comment with something like 'well I weigh ___ and I'm not complaining' just...don't. Bah. Mood swings don't help, I think. But with the aid of EBT I can actually afford food that is good for me. I went shopping, and I recreated my account on myfitnesspal.com.

We'll see what happens