My cousin's girlfriend is going back to school. I've been really wanting to go back to school, but I was under the assumption that I had been disqualified from being able to finish at Ball U. I had forty-five credits completed when I was hospitalized, and ended up leaving the university in the fall of 2009.

Here is my issue. Tonight, Tay was asking me about how classes, etc for school worked. She's never been to a higher education situation, so I was looking through Ivy Tech's book with her and explaining things. I told her I'd been wanting to go back to school, but that I was pretty sure that not only did I owe Ball U money, but that my academics there weren't that pretty the last few semesters because of the hospitalizations and everything.

I logged on to my account at Ball State to show Tay something, and checked my grade-point average just to be sure of it. I told her 'Well, it's not what I wanted to do, but I want to get back into school and do -something- with my life, so I'll go with you to Ivy Tech and talk to them.' Then I logged on and saw this:


Here is what is listed for my last semester (fall 2009). It was the point at which I withdrew and dropped all classes I had.


Okay, so like... Here's my problem. I want my Creative Writing degree. Like... I really, really want my Creative Writing degree. I can't get that at Ivy Tech. They just don't have programs like that. And I'm not sure what I should do really. Do I call them? Re-apply and see what happens? Say screw it and go with Ivy Tech? I really want my degree. I have 45 credits in. My dad in Florida says if I want to go back to school, they will make sure that it is financially possible for me. Being that I haven't thought it possible in quite a while, I've been sitting here just staring at it.

I just wish I knew what to do. I havent signed my lease at the place here yet (I won't sign until the 14th of October), so at least I have time to figure that out.

I need to do some soul searching.