Well, some (or none at all) may be wondering who the new big mouth is that has seem to set up shop to this online Pagan community. I always hate to dig out the minor and many details of who I am as a person, so for once this post will be brief.

I'm just a harmless everyday crazy woman. No, I don't say that in jest, I am completely neurotic and odd. I am different... but not extraordinarily or especially different than anyone else. I'm not special, just "special" in the head. ;^_^

I grew up in a poor and abusive environment. My father is an abusive crack addict, which he later traded that habit for abusing over-the-counter narcotics instead. He abused and terrorized my mother, my siblings, and I, from the time I was age six until my mom got fed up and kicked him out (with the help of the police) when I was age 17. My oldest brother was the focus for his abuse, until he got older, so then I was next in line starting at age 6. With the child abuse and constant bullying at school, I did develop an anxiety disorder... which I still battle with every day. I'm hopeful that someday I will be free of it and not suffer it, along with some agoraphobia as well. There's a few other things I have to deal with mentally, but I'll leave it alone for now.
I've written a blog to help others understand those who suffer with past abuse issues here: http://aboutabuse.wordpress.com/

I simply chat a lot, because I have so much to say... basically, I was silent for a decade because of the low self-esteem and abuse I got from peers and home, that I just stop talking... my words was locked up inside of me and I was morbidly and dangerously depressed for that whole decade. So, I ramble on and on because I'm just catching up on everything I wanted to say and didn't/couldn't say in those many years of silence. And it keeps the darkness away from me. ^_^

I do not write this for pity, I HATE pity and have no use for it. I don't know what to do with pity, whatsoever... it's like annoying baggage added onto the ones I already have. So please, don't weight me down. I only share to explain why I'm so odd and chat A LOT!

Thanks for reading! ^_^