I know there are many posts like this, but I honestly have no one in my life with a "pagan perspective" to discuss this issue with.
I was raised on the Bible and have been at war with my very nature since I was a child. For years I have been fighting to preserve my true self but after being cut off for so long I just feel lost. It is not easy to simply pick up where I left off because I never really started. And also I was very impressionable and open-minded as a child. As an adult I find myself overwhelmed by guilt and fear at the thought of expressing my spirituality in a different way. Doing nothing just seems easier most of the time but in the end I just feel empty. My anxiety is reflected in my dreams and when I wake up it is with the awareness that I'm on the wrong path.* But the right path is never alluded to.
I just wanted some advice on how to proceed further or if I should just stop and clear my head.
*On a lighter note, I keep dreaming about studying crystals and planning rituals.
I was raised on the Bible and have been at war with my very nature since I was a child. For years I have been fighting to preserve my true self but after being cut off for so long I just feel lost. It is not easy to simply pick up where I left off because I never really started. And also I was very impressionable and open-minded as a child. As an adult I find myself overwhelmed by guilt and fear at the thought of expressing my spirituality in a different way. Doing nothing just seems easier most of the time but in the end I just feel empty. My anxiety is reflected in my dreams and when I wake up it is with the awareness that I'm on the wrong path.* But the right path is never alluded to.
I just wanted some advice on how to proceed further or if I should just stop and clear my head.
*On a lighter note, I keep dreaming about studying crystals and planning rituals.
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