Whatcha thinking about now?

[iris]

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I have a fear of doctors, which is ironic because I used to study medicine. That fear extends to shrinks too, I figured that out a while back. But now, sitting on the train going to see my shrink I'm reminded of how bad it is. Every fiber in my body is telling me to turn around. I am scared of going to the person who can help me stop being scared. If I didn't have such a great appreciation of irony, it might be a bit tragic. But I try to laugh at it.

[Azvanna]

This time next week my husband and I begin moving into our new home!! I'm crazy excited. Currently I'm going through all my possessions including clothing to decide what to give away and what moves with us. So therapeutic. I'm hoping for far less clutter in our new home.

I have a fear of doctors, which is ironic because I used to study medicine. That fear extends to shrinks too, I figured that out a while back. But now, sitting on the train going to see my shrink I'm reminded of how bad it is. Every fiber in my body is telling me to turn around. I am scared of going to the person who can help me stop being scared. If I didn't have such a great appreciation of irony, it might be a bit tragic. But I try to laugh at it.

How do you go through with it Iris? If I've learned one thing about fear, it's that rationalising just won't cut it in the moment. You must be very courageous.

[iris]

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How do you go through with it Iris? If I've learned one thing about fear, it's that rationalising just won't cut it in the moment. You must be very courageous.

I can laugh it off for a bit, I can even stall an attack. I'm a master at supressing emotion (which is why I'm in this situation in the first place)... today, I spent an hour crying and shaking before I could leave.. I honestly don't know. I keep reminding myself it's fear, I know how it plays out, it will pass... Honestly I just get over myself, I don't know how. The same way I have terrible stage fright but keep getting on a stage. The firm belief that if I just keep at it I'll get used to it and it will stop scaring me, maybe... but I wouldn't say I'm brave, there are lots of things I avoid because I'm scared of fear. Some things just has to be done no matter how awful I feel. And I do feel awful... I don't really know why I found a shrink 1 hour away, it's an awful wait but I laugh, because a part of me sees how silly it is.

[Näre]

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Humour is a good weapon in some cases.

I should go home and clean up a bit because it's mess. Next time when I get the flu I swear I won't throw tissues all around the floor...

[anunitu]

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Sure Nare,sure..I understand that when you have the Flu,you believe you won't live through it,so toss those tissues where ever(I swear some flus I thought,"Just kill me")

[Näre]

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Sure Nare,sure..I understand that when you have the Flu,you believe you won't live through it,so toss those tissues where ever(I swear some flus I thought,"Just kill me")

I'm just so lazy that I take the flu as an excuse to throw them around and wallow in decadence.

[Hawkfeathers]

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Sure Nare,sure..I understand that when you have the Flu,you believe you won't live through it,so toss those tissues where ever(I swear some flus I thought,"Just kill me")

December 1986 I had a temp. of 105 for a few days and could only crawl on the floor to get anywhere other than bed. I thought I was dead. I think that fever explains a lot LOL

[Juniper]

Cadaver Lab on Tuesday gave me another reason to continue to lose weight.

[Hawkfeathers]

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Cadaver Lab on Tuesday gave me another reason to continue to lose weight.

In college, I took Anatomy at 8 a.m. one semester. No breakfast on dissection days!

[B. de Corbin]

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Cadaver Lab on Tuesday gave me another reason to continue to lose weight.

Nobody wants to be a flabby corpse - all the other corpses laugh at you.

The dead can be so cruel.

[DragonsFriend]

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I have one totally unreasonable fear. I fight it every chance I get because I know that fear exists only to be conquered. It used to be debilitating but I have worked on it, a little at a time, in baby steps sometimes, to where it only bothers me under specific conditions. I fully intend to conquer it.

[Spiny Norman]

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... fear exists only to be conquered.

I can't say I have ever "conquered" a fear, it's most like just accepting they exist and carrying on anyway.

[DragonsFriend]

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If a fear doesn't stop you then you have conquered it. If the fear still controls your actions then it needs to be fought until it doesn't. Some fear is good but fear that is debilitating is never good. Phobias are fear that is unreasonable and debilitating. By your statement I will assume that you have never had a phobia.

[EndlessCravings]

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Just thinking about this interesting chat i had yesterday. I love it when people try to tell me about my own diagnosis.

[volcaniclastic]

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Slept through my alarm again until the daylight. Now it's nearly 11am, and I'm just sitting down to breakfast. I need to stop doing this. My life is falling apart.